I apologize for loving this poetic
English language art with its dead white males.
European artists who excelled at things
Like European meters… and logic…
And perspective in oils… and polyphony….
How they often failed to be African.
In defense of American Europe:
we don’t judge by race when it’s important:
It’s talent in sports or popular music.
I apologize for White Supremacy ™.
Asians earn more than whites, Jews out earn
Christians. All colors are represented
At all levels of our culture, White House,
Wall Street, pentagon, TV. We are such bad
White supremacists, we can only blame
Ourselves that White Supremacy, hard sell
Already, collects dust on sagging shelves
In the American African Studies stores.
I apologize: you scraped your elbow
And the Band-Aid your mother stuck on you
Was white-ish “Flesh”, an alien plastic scab
On your micro-hurt. Healing wounds, it seems,
Is not a black thing. I apologize
That a black President can’t count as ‘Post-‘
with all these wrong colored adhesive pads.
I apologize for your resentment
Of evils done to other people
In other places at other times;
People with skin somewhat similar to yours.
Terrible crimes committed by people
In other places at other times;
People with skin somewhat similar to mine.
I’m sorry I was born racist-colored.
I apologize that crime is dangerous
As a career. All those videos shared
Of black men breaking laws, running from cops,
Fighting with cops, pointing weapons at cops...
I understand-ish why you say: “If they
Are not safe around cops, how could any
Black person be?” And I’m sorry there’s logic.
I apologize for the melanin-
Laden multitudes you’ve sorted by skin,
yours-ish-colored, manning jails and prisons
For unjustified reasons like racism,
Murder. rape, theft, selling drugs to children,
Trafficking teenage girls… It’s my white skin,
so confusable. Your advocacy
For dumping the prisons into projects
Because black lives… matter(?)… maybe makes sense
When your melanin bristles correctly.
I defer, of course, to your middle class
Advanced degree in Resentment Studies.
You know how horrible white people were
and how fine everyone else’s empires.
I’m certain to cite your work, but for now….
I apologize for thinking my wife
Was foolish when young black males were there
Seeming aimlessly wandering the lot
And a voice in her head yelled “Turn the key
And drive”, but her educated mind called
Out her racism. So she stayed around to learn
What the barrel of a pistol looks like
I apologize it still seems,
In 2017, she should not be
So trusting of PhD’s promoting
Their own skin, especially when they say
The most absurd thing anyone could say
About racism (and they teach this in school):
“Black people can’t be Racist” (hand over heart).
“If a person is born the right color,
They are not racist. Only people born
Racist-color are racist. Wrong-color
Types understand nothing about racism.
Wanting a genocide of white babies?
No. Not racism. Saying ‘colored people’,
Not ‘People of Color’? What a monster!
Because Blacks have no power to murder
All the white people they hate. Oh, and vote
For Black people…” So we can call them racist…?
Again, I apologize for the power
Of the logical and the impulse to laugh
At born-too-late, proxy indignation.